If you happen to stumble across this blog it may not be of much interest to you... But, for those of you in my life wanting to keep up, the words below are plenty. This is a journey of my life this past year, a newly single mother trying to figure out how to live life to the fullest! In the beginning there was an attempt at daily posts, now I am lucky if I get my fingers on the keyboard every week! I write about life, living and all of the fun stuff in between. If and when I am lucky, I throw in a bit of love! Let me tell you I am experiencing it all, and relishing every bit of it! It all started in July of 2010... if you want to catch all of the good stuff from the beginning, you might want to start there first...

Friday, September 17, 2010

302 days to go...


Day 63 - Had an awesome night on Wednesday at the shooting range! I think I have found a new way to express myself. Plus having a 6'4" guy stand behind you whispering things in your ear... uh yea... I must like living on the edge because that date was a total turn on!


Ahhh... Its Friday night and the weekends here, I need to unwind...where's the party..... Mr. DJ!
Headed down to the meat market, uhh.. I mean the Sand Sport Show where all of the dirt bike boys hang out! It's a social/business field trip. I have to make an appearance, hug all the guys, see Mr. Sunglass boy, and then head out! Meeting up with some old high school buddies for drinks after. Should be an interesting night!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

305 days to go...


Day 60 - OK, I admit I am getting slower and slower at updating. Things have been very busy lately! Let's see... where did I leave off, oh yes the second official date, almost a week ago.

The week finished off with no major complications and only a few bumps. Thursday from what I can remember was uneventful, which these days is neither good nor bad! Friday started with a great hour of yoga, followed by lounging at the pool with Allissa. That night I headed out to one last soiree to wish Kaley adieu, but this time I brought a date, and a girlfriend! Why not drag the guy you've seen only a handful of times to meet your little sister and several of her friends... all of which who love to jab and drink wine! He was a great sport, but seemed a little nervous, to be expected I guess. (From now on I am going to refer to him as Mr. M!)

Saturday I had a nice quiet drive down to San Diego to visit one of my dearest girlfriends and join in on the festivities of her sons 3rd birthday. Silly me never opens the evite and just heads south after confirming the weather of cool and overcast... Needless to say, I was "that" girl at a pool party in jeans, heels and a sweater. Kelly and I got a kick out of it. Thank goodness I didn't have Kayden, that would have been a nightmare... swim party and no suit! My intentions were to head out from there and meet up with an old buddy, but last minute his plans changed. So in turn I headed to Chris & Allissa's for maggies and dinner! Great friends always save my Saturday nights.

Sunday got my girl back, headed out for a hike, had some friends over for pool time and then finished the evening off with a little football and dinner. It's nice to have people back at my place. For so long my friends were afraid to come over to my last house as the tension was so toxic. Now my house is filled with laughter, wine and yummy smells from the kitchen! Mr. M and his daughter opted to stop by and delivery a little gift to me. The girls were excited to see one another and immediately bounced off to play. My friend joined right in with my gang which consisted of Chris, Allissa and Kaley, and fit right in. It was a very nice night for me, one which was simple, and yet I thoroughly enjoyed.

Now remember the "bumps" I mentioned earlier... Bump 1, got a call on Friday. Bump 2, followed by an email on Sunday. Really...as if I am not doing a good enough job on my own comparing... I get the pleasure of hearing your voice and seeing your words. The two things I long for nearly everyday, but have somehow managed to forge on! Get it together girl!

All in all I wrapped up last week just fine. I truly am enjoying things everyday. I am not nearly as stressed financially, and the romance is slowly headed this way, I will just have to wait and see where it takes me!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

310 days to go...

Day 55 - Wow, time to get you caught up on the recent activities of my ever changing world!

So recap Monday... the meeting of the girls.
This guy is so cute, his number one lady is his 6 year old daughter... uh can I relate or what! They have an amazing relationship as he has primary custody of her. We could spend countless hours just talking about parenting moody little girls! (but we don't!)

Tuesday rolled around and Kayden decided to spend the evening with her dad. That left me with the night off, thankfully I was determined to work out after my over indulgent weekend. Much to my surprise my new friend opted to spend the time with me and we went for a run. Now seriously ladies... who wants a guy to see her for the second time all red and sweaty! I must be a confident woman or a complete idiot. (ha ha... leave that open for debate) Mind you he runs triathlons for fun and is 6'4" so his stride is far greater than mine. He was practically skipping AND talking as I gasped for air dripping in sweat! Fun times, let me tell you. Finished the night off with a quick bite to eat and sat talking for hours.

Last night was the second full date...
We headed down to the beach for some dinner on the pier. It was a wonderfully romantic evening that included a scenic drive, sunset at the beach, dinner al fresco, and a cuddled up stroll down the pier. What more could this girl ask for.

Now here is where the problem lies... I like this guy, I really do, and why wouldn't I... He's attractive, kind, charming, totally understands the whole kid thing. The chemistry is there, but somewhere in the back of my mind I am starting to compare. It's not fair I know and I am working on it. Wish me luck!

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

312 days to go...

Day 53 - I had a terrific Labor Day weekend... how about yourself? I am truly blessed to have such an incredible family. They welcomed me and my friends (7 of us in all) with open arms and made everyone feel so comfortable.

The weekend started with all of us driving north to the ranch Friday afternoon. We arrived to a welcoming reception! Kaley had made fabulous appetizers for all to enjoy with chilled wine on the lawn. Curtis prepared one of his memorable dinners that we all finished off together in the dining room. Wonderful food and the best company. After dinner we headed back outside to sit in the lawn and watch the stars. I actually saw the Milky Way for the first time.

Saturday we headed out wine tasting. I only got a few sips as I had volunteered to be the DD. I enjoyed seeing everyone tasting and having a grand old time. At one point we even got a private tasting with the winery owner himself in the barrel room. We all enjoyed the one on one attention, it was the highlight of the day!

Sunday we headed to the coast for yummy fish, spicy bloody mary's and picturesque ocean front views. Couldn't have asked for a more perfect weekend, well maybe the ranch being a little closer but I love it up there.

And the bonus... Monday! Just love getting that extra day off. Had a psuedo 1/2 date with a new friend. We both had our daughters and decided to meet so I could return his sunglasses. We were very cautious to not let the girls know what was going on. However, my girl being the extrovert, was eager to meet this cute little girl who sat at another table as we ate our lunch. Soon thereafter they were standing at the window looking at ducks and helping one another fill out the puzzles on their menus. All in all our little plan worked. The girls had a great time together and we continued to act as strangers. We fed the ducks and eventually walked over to the kids store and let the girls each pick out a toy. To summarize the meeting Kayden eventually said "Mom, you should get his number"! To say the least I was pleased... even if she meant only for another play date. Kayden and I then headed to a friends BBQ to cap off the weekend.

I have a second real date coming up tomorrow evening... So excited!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

317 days to go...

Day 48 - Ahhh... I love drama free days. Nothing much happened today, that's not to say I wasn't busy, but it was a normal day!
I had lunch with an old high school girlfriend. I guess I haven't seen her in over a year... that went by quick. She happened to pick the same location I had dessert at last night. As I walked into the restaurant, the waitress recognized me from the night before and proceeded to inform me that my date from last night left his sunglasses. (strange that I clarify last night... its not like I have been on any other dates!) So cliche... leave something behind so you can get a second date! He and I joked about it all evening. He truly seems to be a geniune person.
Just finished packing the bags to head to the ranch this weekend. It's my friend Chris' bday and a group of us are going wine tasting. I cannot wait, I am sure we will have a fantastic weekend. I have tons of fun up there and that's without my friends... this time I am bringing 5! Watch out Paso, the city bunch are on there way!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

318 days to go...(still)

Day 47 - Inquiring minds want to know.....

So my "online"/blind date went extremely well. He was a very interesting person. He reads people for a living, meaning their body language and responses to questions for corporations. Luckily he informed me of this at the beginning of the date. I was so frickin' nervous, my hands were out of control. I walked in and immediately gave him a hug, much less embarrassing than shaking hands! Then I proceeded to tell him he was my first date in 15 years, that made him nervous! All in all we had a great time, chatted the whole time, swapping stories. My body language finally relaxed, as did my nerves, two Kirian's could have been the culprit! What was supposed to be a quick meeting and a drink turned into dinner, a walk around the lakes, followed by dessert and a night cap. I really had a good time and felt comfortable.

I am so glad I finally got the damn courage to DO something! It could have been a disaster, but my first time was just perfect. Again, we shall see where this goes......

318 days to go...

Day 47 - WOW, can you believe it is already September. Since February this year has flown by. My calendar has been filled with ups and downs along the way. I really have no problem watching 2010 go away. It's been my ever haunting hurricane!

Tonight I have my first real date! YIKES.... I am meeting someone I have been chatting with online. It is crazy that this is where I am at, but I have accepted it. I am nervous and a little excited. To this point he doesn't hold a candle to my "special" pen pal, but not sure anyone can fill that spot. I am optimistic and willing to give all applicants a fair shot!

Fill you in later tonight or tomorrow if stay out too late!